love?

so many people say that theyre in love, but honestly, how can youh possibly kno? there is always someone that youh could like more than the person youh say youh love, so what does it mean to say youh love someone? does it mean that youh would die for them? what is the ultimate test of love? && why do all the ideas coming to my head involve death...?

treasure thy friendship.

the following is word for word from my godsquad journal from august 2nd, 2007. i kno it's late, but i couldn't find my journal. shush.

c && s: "so what about you, caroline?"
me: "uhhm what?"
c && s: "what do you treasure most?"
me: "well, above all, i treasure friendship. not the everyday, run of the mill ones, but the truly honest ones where both people are comfortable enough with just being themselves that they don't try to assimilate themselves so that the other person will accept them easier. people are always so eager to be accepted that they forget who they are && lose themselves in who they are trying to be. but the thing is that the rare, genuine friendships are the ones that last-so what's the point in faking who you are?"
s: "woahh. well, next question."

ignoring people.

has a certain art to it...&& unfortunately, there are people doing it the complete wrong way hence hurting people more thean intended. for instance: if two people [for the sake of fluency, let's say their names are jack && alice]. so jack met up with alice && they had a wonderful night togehter [nothing innappropriate, mind youh] && jack promises that he'll call once he gets home. well what happens a full two months later when that call never came && alice already tried her luck at phoning him, with no more success then hearing his voice... on the answering machine. should alice give up trying to communicate with jack? she has no idea why this is happening, by the way. as neither of them had any reason to ignore the other for a full two moths. should alice still try to get in contact with him or just give up altogether? in my opinion, i believe alice should forget his sorry ass && leave him to suffer alone. but in that case how would that awful conversation go when he asks her what happend? well what happened was he turned into a drugged out little boy with a police record, but that has nothing to do with the story prior.

there is a certain art to ignoring people, && in my opinion, people need to just get out what the hell is bugging them, or else the victim is further inflicted with the pain of denial of importance.

gangster people.

so 'gangster' people that rap rap about the ghetto && having a hard life. but in the same music videos chanting about poverty, you get a visual of big houses, nice cars, && money, things that regular peole [like me] don't have at all. a ghetto is a place set aside in a city for a particular group, like the jewish people in world war 2. but the african american people werent PUT there, that was the only places that they could afford so they just stayed there. but when the rich ones sing about the people still in the ghetto, isnt that like a slap in the face for the people still living in extreme poverty? like 'wow that guy just said he lived like us but it seems to me that i'm about to die && he could put this city's entire ghetto into his house if he had the heart, he SAYS he cares about us, that we're all homies, but he's letting us live a life that will lead us into the next phase in the circle".

so is there a point to the things he raps about if its just fake? cuz real songwriters write about things that happened in their lives && make excellant songs about it. but if a guy just comes along && raps about things that didnt actualy happen, is there a point to listening to what he's trying to say if theyre just lies?

this is why ghetto people make me laugh, cuz they dont evn kno what theyre following when they don the oversized clothes&& the bling. they are supporting something built from lies.

some credit goes to austin from texas [haha].

guitar solo's?

everybody knows what a guitar solo is, just as much as everybody knows who jason matthew thirsk was [joke i guess thats just me]. but have you actualy stopped to think about it? a solo basically means 'by itself' but during the classic guitar solo's that we have all come to know && love lies a hidden secret : theyre not solo! guitar solo's are usualy accompanied by drums, the bass, or even another guitar. the only thing thats ALWAYS missing is, of course, vox [or vocals for the unsavvy people].
&& for all the people that think theyre smart && say "well what about the times where theres only the guitar playing [like to start a song or to finish it] but those dont count as solo's because they normally come at the climax or just before the climax of the song [like at the bridge or somewhere near]. at the beginning of the song if a guitar is used solely, its to capture the listener's interest, if at the end it's normally to let them off of the wonderful trip known as a good song.
good songs to me are the ones that get your adrenaline pumping, like your heart is really pounding && you just HAVE to sing the lyrics at the top of your lungs if there are lyrics.
which brings me to my next point : instrumental songs are not guitar solo's. think about it : the entire song cannot be a solo! cuz then its not a break from anything. UNLESS you have a really downbeat song that plummets into a whole 'nother universe at a certain point in the song [case && point : dazed && confused by led zeppelin].
but anyways i'm not entirely sure if i'll be on again anytime soon; i'm bringing myself across the country to help relief from katrina in new orleans. i be a saint. [theme song for trip is the saints are coming by U2 && green day. not my decision].

music = life?

so i get it : people say that music is life. but then would silence be death?! if someone never listened to music before [hard to believe but bear with me] would they be dead? or perfctly happy, cuz maybe for them, maybe plants is life. i believe oxygen is life. which makes more sense cuz if someone is deprived from music for a certain amount of time, they will go crazy, but dead? i think thats a tad bit irrational. the essentials for life are water && air [i guess food too but youh can go a LOT longer without food then without, say, OXYGEN. so music cannot be LiFE. it can be a good part of life, the entertainment portion [again not necessarily needed]. but to say that music is life might be going a bit far.

final wishes debate.

so if someone is about to die, && its for sure, should their final wish be taken into account? like if old man joe is surrounded by loving relatives && he says 'as my final wish i want anna to marry ted". then he dies. but what joe didnt realize is that anna && ted absolutely hate eachother. like immensely. do they have to marry just because it was the man's final wish && they both love him && respect it? if they don't get married does that mean they don't respect him enough to follow his dying wish through? if they did get married but divorced like 5 minutes after would that count? or do they need many years just to honor old man joe?!

counts for warped tour!

so at mountain view warped tour we counted :
[us means me, kelly, && sammi]

103 mohawks [yess we counted. we be dorks]
83 pictures before my camera proclaimed it was exhausted
7 stickers [sweet]
5 new c.d.s [CIWWAF, PRP!, TA, RDR, && CS]
4 people i know [lauren, kristin, jen, mike]
4 girls with no shirts
4 videos before my camera proclaimed it was exhausted
1 drunk person that started dancing with us
3 bands that we were watching that had moshpits
2 bands that we meetd && greetd [PLAYRADiOPLAY! && all time low]
2 of my favorite bands i saw [PLAYRADiOPLAY! && PENNYWiSE]
1 new shirt [playradioplay!]
1 tatoo [boys like girls]
1 band that i regret missing [boys like girls]
1 unforgettable day

thanks go to kelly!

birthdays.

so, today, being my birthday, i may as well rant about birthdays. && i'm going to have to go with kyle xy [great show. watch it] on this one saying: "why do people celebrate the amount of years they have if it only brings them closer to death [?]. " exactly what i would say!! perfect logic. im not quite sure what to add to that. uhhm should i be depressed today that i am officialy 15 years into life && therefore fifteen years closer to death, or should i be happy about being older, making me wiser [not true]. people are usualy happy on their birthday, rite?

but then theres kyle's statement!! but then shouldnt days be bad too? cuz theyre days closer to death too. so why should we bother trying to be happy if we're just inching closer to the end with every passing second?i think im going to answer my own question with the old cliche :"life is precious, treat every day like its your last, && make it count". if i were to treat everyday like it were my last i think i would have a lot more spontaneous actions. so i think i'll end this with a thank youh for anyone reading this. cuz for some reason writing in a blog makes me feel special :]

weaponry.

there are always rules against weapons. exspecially in airports, schools, && hospitals or important places that have some some sort of power. no knives, guns, metal, LiQUiDSs, etc. but the thing is that anything can be used as a weapon, so why bother enforcing the rules so much for the more obvius ones, when someone can just as easily, say, strangle someone with.... their clothes [?]. is there a point to this madness?! last year while going thru security in mexico, they threw away my entire matchbook collection that i had culminated during the previous week. it was lame!! i mean, do they really expect a blonde american girl to set her seat on fire?! what the hell. i couldve just as asily suffocated the lady next to me with her damn pillow. ANYTHiNG can be used as a weapon, so proves mcguiver.

summer vacation.

so school ended today && this is the last day ill be a freshamn till college. oh i realized that ben && i are in coordinating grades, but in high school && college. for example, hes a sophomore, i'm a sophomore. but what i hate most about today is the depressiness factor. its so sad to look around && gaze into the faces of people that you [well i wont anyway] see for another like 3 months. which suxx cuz its like staring into the faces of ghosts, && i kno that i will miss them like crazy in just about a week.

but anyways the main topic for today is the title of 'summer vacation'. iTS STiLL SPRiNG!! atleast till the 21st but until then people have no rite to say its summer just cuz we dont happen to have school. then in the yearbooks people say 'have a good summer' but cant they wish us more then just summer.. cuz we still have like 7 more days of spring. or if thats too confusing for little minds to handle, they can put 'have a happy break'. iTS NOT SUMMER! damn.

buggss.

okeyy so everybody always says that bugs are really annoying, specially if theyre like crawling on youh. but honestly, if theyre crawling on youh, shouldnt that be taken as a compliment? they couldve picked anyone elsee, but they picked youh. shouldnt youh be like honored? its can mean that youh small good, or that youh have what dumb people ** dana** call 'sweet blood'.

but whats the deal with when people spot a bug in the AiR && try to kill it? are they insulted because they werent good enuf to be landed on or something?!

bugs save our planet. without some of them, we wouldnt be alive. like the compost ones. compost helps soil grow stuff, like, i dont know... food. if there was no food, we wouldnt evn have a chance to live. so why punish them with death? they live [in this case the U.S.] so shouldnt they have the right to a fair trial by jury? pretty much all the species have been around well before we were. so they deserve to get something back for it, like, i dont know... a place to land.

bothersome. o.0;;

people should obey the laws of traffic when walking. keep to the right, yeild to the people on the left, etc. so why is it that in the halls of school people insist on going the wrong way?! i kno that some poeple, like dana, say that i'm wrong. screw youh dana. kiddinggg. but seriously people always run right into me && i make a habit out of not looking directly at people so i can TRY to NOT run into people.

damn.

but then theres my philosophy that people dont run into people unless its completely on purpose. which still applies if someone pushes someone into another person. like if i pushed dana into a wall && she richoshayed into another person, that would be on purpose by me, unless the person she crashed into was really her secret crush && she WANTED to crash into them, then it still would be on purpose. it makes sense, just think aboot it.

so then according to that the people that crash into me actualy want to do just that.

damn.

more where that came from.

is it possible to sneeze while you're sleeping? cuz if so i'm kinduv worried.

my sister started sneezing in the middle of the nite && i wasnt sure whether or not she was meaning to [hence awake] or if it was one of those things that the body does without permission.